One Doofus Many Doofi

2003-11-12T20:29:00.000+10:00

Unusual Beauties by Aleksandra

Curiosity

Temperance

Melancholy

Lust

Razor Soft Kisses by Kittynn

Kisses rain down on her body..
As she arches, grabbing up fistfulls of his hair..
tangling herself in the long length of it like a silken sheet.

His tongue is sharp like a knife..
Carving wounds into sweet porcelain flesh..

He's leaving bloody trails..
where his lips should be.

He's smiling, and telling her nothing is wrong.
He's smiling, and telling her he loves her.

And inside, inside she's crying razorblade tears.

He grunts, and spills crimson petals across her stomach.
A sign of his affection. A sign of his love.

Spent.
Carefully, he places her back in the little glass cage..
Fragile, them both.
Turns the lock.
She fakes a smile. No she doesn't mind. No, leave me here.
As crystalline tears streak down pale cheeks..

And she licks her lips,
to taste the remnants of his razor soft kisses.

Your Rose by Kittynn

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i like these pictures, they arent what i usually put up but i think they're all most excellent indeed.

2003-11-06T22:08:00.000+10:00

Picture Post!

thats enough random picture posting for now, my computer is dying

I HATE PORTFOLIOS!!!

2003-11-02T17:19:00.000+10:00

i cant wait for school to be over already. i also have a tan for the first time in a long time...

i realised today that without Dane i'm missing someone that i can fully trust and tell everything to, he was my diary and i dont have that anymore, and i havent been happy since i lost that... and now i think i dont mean to but i end up trying to tell Macdees the things i would have told Dane but i dont know if he cares or understands what im rambling to him...

i'll update properly when schools finished, i think i have 2 weeks or something... who knows... but its nearly over, finally

2003-10-25T21:42:00.000+10:00

You are: Motion Picture Soundtrack.
You're like a church organist who's just had his
heart cut out with a rusty spoon and is now
pining for the person who left him. We feel
for you...(nice chords, by the way).

What Radiohead Song Are You?
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2003-10-25T19:33:00.000+10:00

i think it's funny when my mum refers to the toilet as the toot.

HAPPY 18TH POTATO GEM!

2003-10-22T22:48:00.000+10:00

What Makes You Sexy? by eva71
Name/NickName
Gender
Sexy Body Part Is	Your Hair
Special Talents Are	Stalking Your Prey

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:	Rainy Day Realty
You sound like:	Glasseater
You will be signed to:	Jive Records
Your emo lyrics are:	"With each word you speak, you cut me in half"
Username:

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what band will you get gang-banged by? by hulahoopwoundss
what band will fuck you (a lot)	hot hot heat
date it will happen	June 1, 2019
you will meet them at	the corner you stand on (whore)
how many STDs you catch	7
money you make from the video	$708,617
name

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Create A My Little Pony Persona by hollyann
Your Name
Your First Pony Name	Cotton
Your Second Pony Name	Candy
Your Pony Species	Windy Wing Pony
Your Body Colour	Blue
Your Hair Colour	Rainbow (Spring Colours)

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Find your inner teeniebopper by clinicallydorky
Your username
Your age	10
Your nickname	SuPa Punk
Your favorite band	New Found Glory
What you wear to try to get backstage	Miniskirt

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Where Will You Have Sex? by natterz_
Name
Date	April 17, 2021
Number Of Times	593
Place	On a stage
Person	Matt Skibba

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^^ GOD DAMN!!! ^^

2003-10-22T20:47:00.000+10:00

LIVID! it was cool. i woke up, had a shower, bought alphabet beads with paul, met viv, you shouldnt be scared of her, she's cool, went back to my sister's house for daquaries, ironed pictures on shirts and made bracelets for livid, gemma turned up, she had red pants, that was exciting, went to livid with paul (who was a bitch and said seany's daquaries sucked), gemma and sheedy, sang the hardest button to button alot, saw my radical cousin patrick, lost people, saw gazoonga attack, saw rocket science, saw pacifier who were fucking awesome, i saw my sister joanna's ex bf peter twice, saw patrick a thousand more times, nearly died of dehydration, found Tisy who i dont know so it was awkward, found adam, ran away from adam, then i saw gazoonga and then rocket science and then pacifier, then i missed Boysetsfire cause paul and gemma and i went to have lunch at hungry jacks (eeewww), made paul miss boysetsfire too cause i didnt understand what he was trying to tell me, then i saw Goldfinger who were amazing! saw patrick and danced with him for their set, lost gemma, was dissapointed she wasnt there to stomp with me to 99 red balloons, lost gemma when i found macdees, robbie, adam, maurice, jaz and footey (he likes it if you poke his stomach...), saw less than jake mmmmhmmmmm unbelievable, fuck yes! (sit down, remind me how this is the same old story of growing up and getting lost!!!!) stole macdees phone to call dane, have to pay him back lots, then we went over to the white stripes, robbie, macdees etc left to see me first and the gimme gimmes (i wish i saw them!) found paul and patrick, introduced him to the brisbane children finally, saw the first few songs of the white stripes with him, then he left me for me first... and i saw the rest of the white stripes with paul, they were so cool!! i was so excited when they played the hardest button to button and "when i hear my name, i wanna dissapear! whoa-oh! whoa-oh!" and dead letter and MMMM i want to go back to Livid!! unfortunately i missed lamb, me first and the gimme gimmes, yeah yeah yeahs and BRMC ooooh livid! i wish i had've taken a camera though!
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2003-10-20T18:52:00.000+10:00

My little pony! Look at how horny she is!
Congratulations for your EXCELLENT style, maybe
your name is even SEBASTIAN!

Which cartoon character's drug are you?
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strawberry

What lollie pop flavor are you
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You are 'Drain the Blood'
*I'm living on shattered faith, the kind that likes
to restrict your breath, there's never been a
better time this, to suffocate on eternal
bliss, In a city that swells with so much hate,
you seem to rise above and take it's place, the
heart pumps until it dies, drain the blood the
heart it's wise. All my friends are murder, all
my bones no marrows in, all these fiends want
teenage meat, all my friends are murderers*

Which Distillers song are you? *from all 3 albums*
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Out-doors: You like the outdoors, your more quiet
and conserved, you like poeple, but you feel
closer to nature at times.

What environment do you represent?
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You have Classic style. Audrey Hepburn is right up
your alley.

What's your style?
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Alicia Silverstone

Which Celeb Without Makeup are you? - Girls (INCLUDES GREAT FUNNY PICTURES!)-NEW QUESTIONS ADDED!!!!!
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2003-10-20T16:03:00.000+10:00

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2003-10-20T14:34:00.000+10:00

random pete has a band. its called Sounds Of Coma. here's a song by random pete's band: "Car Crash Saviour" you should all kick random pete till he agrees to haul his random ass to brisbane and play an all ages with his random band... or you could ask them nicely with no violent urges... but theres no fun in that... mahaha

SPICK RULES AND SPEFFREY ANNE WANTS MY BODY! peace out children ;)

2003-10-13T20:12:00.000+10:00

2003-10-12T20:07:00.000+10:00

You are "Empty Apartment" by Yellowcard.
You did everything right, but still, your
friend is gone. But even now, you love them and
hope that maybe you will look into their eyes
again. Play on. Don't forget to download or
purchase this song!

What great emo song are you?
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glow in the dark aladin bandaides with the genie on
them! totally specific type of bandaide. To put
it simply, you are just like me. You like to go
crazy, and go in the dark. BUT ONLY TEMPORARILY
AND IF YOU HAVE SOME KIND OF LIGHT SOURCE! and
u like putting on bandaides for no reason

What kind of band-aid are you?
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Your the star--SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS! take the
world by storm, my little sponge, don't worry
about the small things, just deal with them
calmly and i'll all work out!

What Spongebob Character are you?
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You're Trip. You're stupid. But, you're kind of
lovable. You play guitar. You take to many
drugs. Life sucks so you changed it. Now you're
too stupid to know. Maybe this just makes you
smarter then everyone...? Ignorance is bliss...

What Detroit Rock City Character Are you?
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Aphrodite/Eros

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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2003-10-10T22:27:00.000+10:00

"words are very, unnecessary, they can only do harm..."

2003-10-10T22:18:00.000+10:00

Stole this off Paul's Livejournal

YOU ARE EMO!

You are one big mess of misunderstood emotions.
Unfortunatelly you lost all of your friends
once you started wearing only black, Gap
sweaters and fake glasses. The good news is
that you now have a whole new ring of anti-
social, well-dressed friends. You sure got a
way with style, and the music you listen to is
enough to make even the hardest of people break
down in tears. Times used to be tough, but
these days life is pretty good for an emo kid.
With your short black hair and morbid poetry
you are the envy of every depressed, suicide
attempting, starbucks drinking mallgoer in your
town.

What is your anti-conformist personality?
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i know you dont read this Dane, but even though yr' answering my calls now, i miss you... and how things were and you cant blame me for being a bit upset so you cant be offended or any crap... yeah thats right, sarcasm...

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FUCK!!

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livid in a week

2003-10-06T19:15:00.000+10:00

I thought it was time i overloaded my blog with pretty pictures

arent they pretty?

2003-10-06T18:02:00.000+10:00

Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By Growing.

2003-10-05T15:49:00.000+10:00

I hope this doesnt break anything...

Gazoonga Attack 1:40 - 2:10 Loudmouth Stage Vs. Little Birdy 1:50 - 2:30 Triple J Bigtop

Vs.

The Hellacopters 4:30 - 5:10 Loudmouth Stage Vs. Har Mar Superstar 4:55 - 5:40 Triple J Bigtop

Vs.

Lamb 6:15 - 7:15 Annex Vs. Goldfinger 6:30 - 7:15 Loudmouth Stage

Vs.

Yeah Yeah Yeahs 7:05 - 8:05 Triple J Bigtop Vs. Less Than jake 7:35 - 8:25 Loudmouth Stage

Vs.

THe White Stripes 9:45 - 11 Triple J Bigtop Vs. Me First and the Gimme Gimmes 10 - 11 Loudmouth Stage

Vs.

What to do... only 1 week and 6 days till Livid!

2003-09-27T18:16:00.000+10:00

my whole life i've taken people for granted up until last monday night (22nd september) now that i've lost my best friend i've hardly stopped crying and the only thing that makes me smile is my boyfriend... i miss the late night whispered phone calls with Dane... i miss Dane in general... to all my friends that i havent screwed up so badly :( thank you for knowing me, however, i dont deserve you or yr' friendships, so im sorry for when i use you, cause i guess i undoubtedly will... sorry

2003-09-16T22:41:00.000+10:00

this reminds me of you macdees!!!

2003-09-14T22:14:00.000+10:00

woo! hoogie was marvelous!! many injuries were sustained, many new friend were made, many new friends were lost, much dancing was done for macdees and in tribute to robbie and bec, and many rock faces for done for samuel :) superjesus were awesome and i have a girl crush on Adalita from magic dirt now

girls germs were AWESOME as per usual! and i was dancing with Bryan, he's a stunner on the dance floor ;) jules was my dancing buddy and Where's America and 78 Saab were really awesome too, Where's Americal are good to skip around to

and now i have exams... hooray...

2003-09-11T18:39:00.000+10:00

i love Ben Kweller, despite only hearing two of his songs, he wrote a song called Lizzy, and he spelt it right :)

2003-09-03T18:25:00.000+10:00

woo! no more qcs!! i never thought i'd get to say that! :D

2003-09-01T19:21:00.000+10:00

yes... i am a nerd... but they're cute!

2003-08-31T15:28:00.000+10:00

these strawberries are so damn good, i hope they arent genetically modified

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For Dane:

Help Save The Youth Of America From Exploding - Less Than Jake

And just outside I can heard the sounds
of the early morning street becoming way too loud
and the hum of the engines of the cars on the street
And with this cigarette that I just lit
as I pass the 53rd St. Bridge
Right now the world just seems too big
so sit down and remind me how
this is the same old story of growing up and getting lost.
And outside I can see my breath
in between the words that fog my spinning head
and I can see the sun coming up. And it's just light enough to see
Another cigarette that I just lit
as I pass the 53rd St. bridge
right now the world just seems to big
And all the late night calls and all the lost hopes
and the missed connections and the lost direction.

2003-08-31T00:04:00.000+10:00

my earring fell out...and theres too much crap around me on this desk! and my ankle is unusually sore, i think iv re-sprained it again for like the third time... i think im melancholy... i dont know, it sounded as good as my reason for starting to draw alot again... halogen are highly cool... dwack mackey...

Fallen Star

you took away the air that i can breathe
motion sickness catches up with me
i realise how quick the world can fall away
and understand the plans we make can go to waste
and drop away like

a fallen star
a fallen star
a fallen star

thoughts are leaving bruises you can touch
i've never known what i don't show so much
i realise how quick the world can fall away
and understand the plans we make can go to waste
and drop away like

a fallen star
a fallen star
a fallen star
a fallen star...

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2003-08-30T23:13:00.000+10:00

Revolution - Speedstar*

who can talk about your other brothers?
who can talk and last through the night?
help me find a way to help the others
help me try and make it alright

and that little one you hurt
that you think of everyday
with the feeling that you've heard it all before
and you're picking up the pieces
that i broke off in your head
it's in your head

you know it's just like revolution
it's a good time while it lasts
and it's just like the military
coming home to take my life
and it's just like it's necessary
to leave home to take a wife

she's the one she is a thousand others
she's the one to make it alright
it's me again it's me against the others
it's me against the wall and it's alright

you know it's just like revolution...

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if anyone can get into the peabody website and get the lyrics to stupid boy can you send them to me please? i feel so angry/irritated that i think my head is going to either cave in or explode. not because of anyone im just so sick of school work and junk at school and schoolies. im considering the idea of going for a walk right now, at 11:06 pm. with a huge bottle of water. im so angry! and i hate it!!

2003-08-30T18:11:00.000+10:00

Thursday - 'Signals Over The Air'
i have a feeling that link wont work... i only know one other thursday song and its better but i have no link.

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hi paul :)

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"been trying so hard to look away from you..."

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"Signals Over The Air" - Thursday

this is what you see when you look in my direction and (contest in courses. draw this tide like ours.)
this is how it feels calling out what no one even hears.

signals always sent over the air...
over the air...
over the air...
over the air.

when you say my name i want to split it from your lips hot like whispers in the rain.
when you say my name i want to stop it in your lungs and collect all of your blood to put in the radio.

is this how it feels when you don't even fit into your own skin and its getting tighter
everyday and im getting smaller. if i keep holding my breath i'm going to dissapear.

when you say my name i want to split it from your lips hot like whispers in the rain
when you say my name i want to stop it in your lungs and collect all of your blood to put in the radio.

there is nowhere to hide.
they stole the love from our lives and put the sex on the radio.
there's no where to hide.

they stole the love from our lives and put the sex on....

if i keep holding my breath all of this will fade away.
if you keep driving we'll be lying in the rain.

when you say my name i want to split it from your lips hot like whispers in the rain.
when you say my name i want to stop it in your lungs and collect all of your blood to put in the radio.

there is nowhere to hide.
they stole the love from our lives and put the sex on the radio.
yeah - that's where we hide the love and lust and sex: on the radio.

2003-08-27T22:53:00.000+10:00

i just went to my friend's place, who i used to be best friends with when we were little till like grade 4, to help her with an assignment thats due tomorrow that she screwed up really bad and hasnt started and i found out she has depression and is on all crazy medication because of it. i know depression isnt uncommon at all and i know other people with it but she's always been... her. not depressed, not loud... just her... Spending an hour and a half with her trying to help her with an assignment tonight was the first time iv spent more than 5 minutes or however long it takes us to walk to the yr. 11 and 12 area together, with just her, i miss her more than i can understand, and i can see the old her, but theres so much thats different about her, that i dont know, which comes with growing up and apart i know but still it really scared and disturbed me. much like the voice on my phone this morning at 7:30am, but a completely different fear and feeling of being disturbed. i guess i dont know her as well as i would have liked/hoped/thought i did.
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and something that someone said to me on msn, im sure anyone reading this who knows can pick up who it is but it was one of the sweetest things anyones ever said to me... well i thought so at the time...
"Liz, i love you. Inside i have a beautifully sweet panic that occurs whenever i think about you. I go to bed and i think about little things you've said, and i wake up thinking of things you've done. All day you are around me, and that's what i meant before. You are apart of me now, and i don't think i could ever let that go. I love you..."
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i miss you heaps macdees, i wish i could take you back to when we were both five years old and play in the sand pit with you in my backyard.
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and something else that the same person wrote that i thought was really beautiful...
A smile glanced across his face as he thought of the destination. One pearl of condensation haltingly made it's way down the side of his glass and momentarily sat on the wood's grain, before being absorbed. He sat dozing in the sun feeling the warm rays pulse down on his head, and smelling the organic aroma of the grass. From his left a girl entered. It seemed to him like a stage direction, a cue given by an almighty director wanting things to work out for the young man. Without looking, he knew it was her. Her presence made him aware of the soft and indefinable beauty she possessed, but also of something else, a gratitude of spirit that he rarely acknowledged. She angled her head slightly and her soft hair lifted gently in the breeze.
"Hey you..." He said, barely audibly.
A smile warmed across her face and into his heart. He had arrived.

2003-08-20T22:31:00.000+10:00

hooray formal photos...

i miss people...

2003-08-16T15:27:00.000+10:00

THE FORMAL WAS SO NUTS!!! when i get the address off macdees cause i lost it (heh...heh...) i'll put some photos up, hooray!

2003-08-16T15:17:00.000+10:00

i hope this works... halogen rule my soul for the next two minutes! (click the link for their song Drive)

2003-08-11T17:37:00.000+10:00

im so bored...

2003-08-11T17:36:00.000+10:00

QCS is for dumb babies. IM GOING TO MACDEES FORMAL TOMORROW NIGHT!!! im so excited!!

2003-08-11T17:14:00.000+10:00

Living Type - Powderfinger
and you'll be there to break my fall * to reassure my doubts and faults * and all your fables will ring true * they are the lies you lean on too * there's love on your breath * i'd better not say * about the blood on your hands * you hold the future in your hands * and sullen eyes soothe and command * a graceful mouth your deadly tool * too bad the truth has fallen through * there's love on your breath * i'd better not say * about the blood on your hands * the incarnation of a christ - manipulation * there's love on your breath * i'd better not say * about the blood on your hands * the cross on your head * what does that say * about the blood on your hands

2003-08-10T22:40:00.000+10:00

i love these songs, apple blossom is probably my most favourite, or maybe just second favourite, song ever, its so simple and i just really like it, and baby yr' a strange girl is definately somewhere in my top 10.

Baby You're A Strange Girl
Gersey

Fortune was a luxury
Now they've made me out to be
A sparkled heart that cannot shine
And all my words run out of time
Speeding down the motorway
And I can't hear a word you say

I side step all the answers
The million dollar dancers
Taking all the chances
To sell the world for free

There's nothing left to be
Except for you and me
All the drowning in between
Get out before you're beat

I'm speeding down the motorway
I still can't hear a word you say
And everything just sounds the same
I wonder who can save the day

I side step all the answers
We could be the dancers
Taking all the chances
To sell the world for free
The foolish and the whispers
The false and jealous drifters
The words don't match the pictures
The context incomplete

There's nothing left to be
Except for you and me
All the drowning in between
Get out before you're beat

Carry me away
Carry me away, babe
Carry me away
Carry me away, babe

The futures had its day
The paths disintegrate
Down's become so straight
Shuffles with the wait
And I've been running with the days
Launching into space
Dancing into fray
Falling into place

Carry me away
Carry me away, babe
Shadows in disgrace
Wanders in the waste
Turns without a trace
Stumbling for days
And I've been needing an escape
As the shine begins to shame
And the eyes are on the fade

And baby you're a strange, strange, strange girl…

The White Stripes
Apple Blossom

hey little apple blossom
what seems to be the problem
all the ones you tell your troubles to
they don't really care for you

come and tell me what you're thinking
cause just when the boat is sinking
a little light is blinking
and i will come and rescue you

lots of girls walk around in tears
but that's not for you
you've been looking all around for years
for someone to tell your troubles to

come and sit with me and talk awhile
let me see your pretty little smile
put your troubles in a little pile
and i will sort them out for you
i'll fall in love with you
i think i'll marry you

2003-08-07T19:23:00.000+10:00

QUIZZING SPREE!!!!

you are a very uuummm interesting person, to say
the least..but that is cool you are unique the
penguins are definately going to be taking you
off to the funny farm some day real
soon..*can't sleep, penguins will get me*

Are penguins stealing your sanity???
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I highly suggest that you don't sleep for awhile.
Be on the lookout for those clowns..You are
near the top of their "to get next"
list.

Will clowns attack you in your sleep???
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You're Spiritual Machines!

Which Our Lady Peace CD are you? (with pics)
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^ that ones for macdeeeeeees!

You are a GREEN glue stick
Likely an animal lover, believes in peoples rights.
dont give up what you believe in.

What color glue stick are you?
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You are "Double Allergic". The second
album. A bit of a disappointment to early
fans, but still with some good tracks. You
lack direction but still manage to impress some
people some of the time.

Which Powderfinger Album Are You?
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^what the funk?? "A bit of a disappointment to early
fans, but still with some good tracks" it's their best cd ever! hooray for Living Type... hooray indeed.

2003-08-04T23:06:00.000+10:00

I'm back, and sooner than expected, hmmmm lets seeee.....well Liz is the best and most awesomest person ever! :P

Besides that she has this really crummy boyfriend who despite his crumminess loves her a lot, so at least he's trying hehe. Macdees (her crummy boyfriend) really wishes that she was here with him now, and can't wait til his formal. Macdees also knows that his mum likes her a lot and even if she didn't it wouldn't matter but he's sure she does so she shouldn't worry!

Smashing, now that's all said and done i have to go to bed, i'm mighty tired, goodnight all!

2003-08-04T19:48:00.000+10:00

Guess who's snuck back in to take control! That's right, it's that evil, maniacal genius.....MACDEES! (Altho he's not a genius, or maniacal or evil BUT he does have control) So..."I really want it, really need it, sugar high." Sorry but i've been singing that all day, Empire Records has a very funky soundtrack and i'm definitely contemplating purchasing it, the movie is also of a very high standard...."I love you Eddie."

Enough about movies and junk, i know what you want...FULL FRONTAL NUDITY! but ur not gonna get it u deviants! instead i thought i would add a link to a page with some cool rapid pix featuring Mr. Matty C and Mr. Rothwell in action at the finest festival around (apparently as I was not in attendance i was in a stupid, little known part of Europe called France). The pic with Matty C is found here and Mr Rothwell can be found in a mid flight here

Well i gotta go do some darned skool work :( but hopefully i'll talk to you all again soon, BYES!

2003-07-30T19:08:00.000+10:00

thanks for updating my blog for me speff! ladies and gentlemen the previous entry was made by speff, who is speff you ask? he is spiffy, his name is jeff, he calls me splizz so he is speff. funk it was cold tonight watching the footy!

2003-07-30T17:03:00.000+10:00

This Great Depression isn't really that great. says:
just scream out my name lots
"now i finally wrote yr' song, another unsent letter..." says:
haha
"now i finally wrote yr' song, another unsent letter..." says:
"SSSSPEEEEEFFFFF!!!!!!"
This Great Depression isn't really that great. says:
i dont understand rugby
This Great Depression isn't really that great. says:
all they do is run and try to snap their necks
"now i finally wrote yr' song, another unsent letter..." says:
there isnt much to understand
This Great Depression isn't really that great. says:
that quote would look good in your blogger
"now i finally wrote yr' song, another unsent letter..." says:
would it?

2003-07-29T22:16:00.000+10:00

"you miss my friends more than you ever missed me..."

'this day' - the sleepy jackson

2003-07-29T21:24:00.000+10:00

2003-07-24T18:54:00.000+10:00

what do half way out and tertiary education have in common? nothing but i listened to half way out today and went through uni and tafe information today. it was ... delightful. also i got out of school cause i nearly threw up on liam in biology.

2003-07-20T21:06:00.000+10:00

macdees is back from france! hooray for boobies!

2003-07-20T21:02:00.000+10:00

Railways made Beverley piss. says:
so whatd you do today?
"...thats more than i can say for you, always ordinary..." says:
i spent the day with macdees
Railways made Beverley piss. says:
like spent it with him as mates or more than that?
"...thats more than i can say for you, always ordinary..." says:
we're more than that but we spent the day just watching movies, at the park listening to music...
Railways made Beverley piss. says:
oh wicked
Railways made Beverley piss. says:
what about your boyfirend but?
"...thats more than i can say for you, always ordinary..." says:
he is my boyfriend...
Railways made Beverley piss. says:
oh shit

ladies and gentlemen, that was spiffy jeff.

2003-07-13T13:49:00.000+10:00

whoa man whoa

2003-07-13T13:36:00.000+10:00

as i just explained to nick "i just spent four days on a mountain where my calf muscles died, i got my first tick (in my stomach) and ran through angry stinging nettles so im allowed to have no clarity at the moment"

also marshmallows are wonderful. the best invention ever. but whats the point of stinging nettles?

i ate a lamb steakette... i feel ashamed... iv stayed away from bbqs for the last two years... maybe its three, i forget, but the point is -lamb steakettes are as bad as stinging nettles-

2003-07-04T23:37:00.000+10:00

radical picture of jack white, no?

2003-07-03T20:17:00.000+10:00

ahaha! i stole this off Paul, i didnt realise it would work on blogs!

2003-07-01T14:21:00.000+10:00

i understand perfectly now:
"Walt Disney Studios Presents A Studio Ghibli Film
Miyazaki's
Spirited Away"

explains Rin's voice.

im quite stupid sometimes.

macdees hurry up and come back from france! *bangs head on desk*

im most bored....

2003-07-01T12:01:00.000+10:00

while i was in brisbane i finally saw Spirited Away.

and its now one of my favourite movies, its so crazy, the girl who plays samara in the ring and who did lilo's voice in lilo and stitch does the voice for Chihiro, and the voice of Rin sounds oddly like the voice of Meg in the disney version of Hercules. so enjoy this picture post!

yeah... sorry... i think that was an overload of pictures... but look what else i found!

Rapid was really good, thanks for organising it all Robbie and thanks for giving me the oppurtunity to meet all those bands, even if i did make a dick of my self, Paul. Girls Germs were as wonderful as ever and Silent Corporation should have played 'Trapped In Me'.

Also i bought a formal dress, although its more of a cocktail dress than a formal one, if i find a picture of it somewhere or if i find one like it i'll post it on here probably... its pretty radical!

2003-06-26T20:24:00.000+10:00

i like my new hair colour. which is good cause there are a lot of things that i dont like right now, but what i dont like, sadly, appears to far outweigh those i do like... i hate these pointless stupid negative ramblings. negativity is so pointless it should never have been invented. neither should impossible assignments. someone remind me what the pax romana is for ancient history by tomorrrow cause iv forgotten.

2003-06-26T20:22:00.000+10:00

i like my new hair colour. which is good cause there are a lot of things that i dont like right. they appear to sadly far outweigh those i do like... i hate these pointless stupid negative ramblings. negativity is so pointless it shouldnt have been invented.

2003-06-26T20:19:00.000+10:00

"sitting here,
the only sound my pen as i'm tapping it on the desk,
distressed,
needing to hear yr' voice,
but yr' so far away now..."

i hate that song.

2003-06-23T20:31:00.000+10:00

guess who's been spending too much time at the Below Par Records site? yeah, theres no way it could be me... anyway hope these links work and that im allowed to do this, cause they're pretty damn radical songs, specially something with numbers, mmmhmmm. and from what iv heard (which isnt much) yellowcard arent too shabby at all...

Yellowcard - "Underdog"

In the Grey - "Hopelicity"

Something With Numbers - "We Can Succeed"

For Amusement Only - "Start Again" (still pretty undecided about this band...)

Last Years Hero - "Own Worst Enemy"

2003-06-21T12:35:00.000+10:00

iv been officially abandoned. by clare and by macdees. i just have one thing to say to each of them if they read this anytime soon.

Macdees: as if you would go to france anyway...

Clare: not meaning to sound like mrs forbes, dont let things that shouldnt have been said or known about get in the way of yr' friendships. teachers leaving and their reasons for it have never split friends up or turned them against each other before and it shouldnt now. make this year count dont make it a regret. not that you'll read this anyway.

argh! i hate being sick. damnation damnation damnation! our school is too negative but i can usually handle it and get over it and be positive and happy but not anymore, not when nearly all my friends are against another one. everyone should watch out cause i think soon im going to either ex/implode (cause it sounds good), go on a violent rampage or just got quietly insane.

thank you for yr' time and please excuse the negativity.

2003-06-17T22:14:00.000+10:00

i need no fillings. yay! religion is so silly.

2003-06-17T22:11:00.000+10:00

hooray for everything.

2003-06-15T22:39:00.000+10:00

Behind the scenes at The Sammy Sun ^ we staff members quite like to regularly dress up as super heroes and do syncronised dance moves. (mr. betros is on the very left looking dandy)

2003-06-15T14:07:00.000+10:00

WARNING:

DO NOT LEAVE YR' SCHOOL BAG UNATTENDED FOR TWO DAYS NEXT TO YR' FRONT DOOR!

giant huntsmans will be lured into them and will lay eggs in them then charge at you when you open the bag. i know from first hand experience in this field.

2003-06-15T14:04:00.000+10:00

.
..
macdees hurry up and move underneath my house ; )
..
.

2003-06-15T14:00:00.000+10:00

im far too boring.

much happened to me yesterday and on friday. it was fun... most of it.

on friday i went to the movies and stuff with macdees! he's radical! and i met his scary/evil friends... and i went to the rugby, and met more of his scary friends and saw robbie and adam and junk, and then i had to get on a bus which macdees' mum and grandma so nicely drove me too, they're very nice and not scary, and then on the bus i sat next to a crazed lady from a mental institution (see the sammy sun online) and that was, very basically, what happened to me this weekend. how exciting! i love macdees, he's the best!

and dane, thank you for knowing me.

2003-06-08T17:58:00.000+10:00

there is no life to be had in dalby. i dont want to go to mass... some devout christian i am :P

2003-06-08T17:53:00.000+10:00

i feel like the biggest nerd in the world right now. i should be in brisbane, with macdees at new school hero, but instead im stuck at home, being made to do school work, and now that im sitting at my computer i'v spotted some crazy warcraft games my brother left here when he moved out, so now im feeling the urge to play them... damn nerdiness... at least iv been let out of my room though, and yes, i was wild looking with sticks in my unwashed and tangled hair, scrambling about on all fours, scavenging for food, foaming at the mouth, hissing, covered in dirt and baring my fangs at my mother as she opened my door letting me know i could have a break before i have to go to mass... or something along those lines... maybe... maybe 2? maybe 3? maybe... i think iv just noticed the arrival of creative liz, hoorah!

2003-06-06T16:30:00.000+10:00

Muahahaha I feel so evil now that i have momentarily taken the helm of this little operation : D I thought for this post i would have to make a good impression so i thought....U can't go wrong with cool pictures and senseless ramblings.

^this first pic here is of a very groovy little ska dancer

^this is just some cool picture i found while i shoulda been doing geography today in class

Anyways i hope this didn't ruin ur blog! But if it did just get rid of it ; )
Also for anyone who enjoys senseless ramblings and cool pics come visit me (macdees)

2003-06-02T17:40:00.000+10:00

so anyway this one time right there was this guy called Jeff. and Jeff was really spiffy. so Jeff decides "gee wiz, im so spiffy i dont know what to do with myself!" and he started singing the white stripes cover of "i just dont know what to do with myself" then mid sentence he stops and says "thats it! i'll start my very own blog! HOORAH!!" and he started dancing. so go visit spiffy Jeff here ----> SPIFFFFFFYYYY JEEEFFFFF!!! and hopefully it will exist.
the end.
(go team gamera!)

2003-06-01T22:33:00.000+10:00

gamera! pass me the camera!!!

RAAAAAAAAH GAMERA! GIVE THEM A BODY BLOW!!

2003-06-01T22:20:00.000+10:00

Rah Macdeeeees!!! here's his wonderful english to spanish to english translation. its magnificent. oh thank you free translation!

Macdees was just sitting down on his verandah after getting locked out of his house again. It was getting really stormy and macdees was happy cos he luvs storms. And then to make things even better and crazier Liz jumped out of a pot plant and hugged macdees. Macdees wasn't expecting a Liz, especially from a pot plant so he was quite excited and they began to skank on Macdees verandah. But then the aliens from signs attacked and the two crazed children escaped to robby's where he told the persuing aliens to kindly leave, then made
hot chocolate for all three of them.

= Macdees se sentaba apenas en su galería después de obtener cerró la puerta a de su casa otra vez. Obtenía realmente tempestuoso y macdees era feliz co él tempestades de cariños. Y entonces hacer las cosas Liz aún mejor y más loco saltó fuera de una planta y macdees
abrazado. Macdees no esperaba un Liz, especialmente de una planta tan él fue emocionado bastante y ellos comenzaron al skank en la galería de Macdees. Pero entonces los extranjeros de signos atacaron y los dos niños de crazed escapados al robby donde él dijo los
extranjeros de persuing para salir amablemente, chocolate caliente entonces hecho para todo y tres de ellos.

= Macdees sat down barely in its gallery after obtaining closed the door to of its house again. It obtained really stormy and macdees was happy co he storms of affections. And then to do the things Liz still better and crazier jumped out of a plant and macdees embraced. Macdees did not expect a Liz, especially of a plant so he was touched enough and they began al skank in the gallery of
Macdees. But then the foreigners of signs attacked and the two children of crazed escaped al robby where he said the foreigners of persuing to leave kindly, chocolate hot then fact for all and three of them.

2003-06-01T18:24:00.000+10:00

sarah wieland and sarah ruhle have amazing voices. i highly suggest asking them to sing for you one day. um... highly suggest? macdees, erin, anna, carla and clare are crazy children. and macdees has pretty nails today. his mum might be a little worried when he gets home... i think i just heard someone say my brother's name on tv... crazy.

2003-06-01T18:22:00.000+10:00

"One Man Army" - Our Lady Peace

Take these plastic people
Read their lips, now let it linger
Is there anything that makes them sound
Sincere?
Tightly hold your hand
Take a deep breath, give them the finger
Are you worried that your thoughts are not quite clear?
(twitch)
Overlooked, unfit appearance

I remember falling
I remember marching
Like a one man army
Through the blaze
I remember coughing
I believe in something
I don't wanna remember falling
For their lies

Unbutton your clothes
Undress your soul, show them your vigor
Are these inhibitions easiest to fear?
Take this gasoline tin
Head up high, walk like a winner
Let the bare feet be the last sound
That they hear

(i blame macdees)

2003-05-27T21:53:00.000+10:00

My new favourite song:

"La Breeze" - Simian

Whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze
Got to get gone
here comes la breeze

Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes la breeze will blow away all your trouble and your sane,
sane little minds
so do your best to run away,
but take a breath and you will pay
you cannot hide
there's no place to hide

whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze
whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze
whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze
whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze

Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes
Here it comes la breeze will blow away all your trouble and your sane,
sane little minds
so do your best to run away,
but take a breath and you will pay
you cannot hide
Here it comes la breeze will blow away all your trouble and your sane,
sane little minds
so do your best to run away,
but take a breath and you will pay
you cannot hide
whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze
whoah oh oh oh ,
here comes la breeze

2003-05-26T20:12:00.000+10:00

there comes a time in every persons life when they become addicted to quiz's. and i believe my time has now come. so here are the results of my latest quizzing spree:

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

*this quiz was made by
href="http://www.saradover.com">Sara

What color do you see the world in?
brought to you by Quizilla

Avril Lavigne, she's a disgrace to your kind.

What annoying Celebrity would you most likely wanna kill?
brought to you by Quizilla

Cocaine.
You like to talk,
you like to run,
but most of all you like to have fun.

Which drug should you be hooked on? [now with pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla

2003-05-26T18:58:00.000+10:00

oh! also! robbie and adam are the best dancers in the world and macdees is wonderful, i suggest running up and hugging him if you ever meet him or next time you see him. aaaww macdees! i just want to hug him lots and lots!

2003-05-26T18:57:00.000+10:00

those are my new chucks! pretty radical hey choice hey bro! except they better on my feet than in a picture. i cant wait to get my photos developed! macdees took a photo for me of me kissing my new shoes and the shop assistant man laughed at me. but my scarf was radical! yeah mother funker ; ) ok i'll stop that now. brisbane was very cool! except i was a wanker on saturday and i felt exceptionally bad for not saying goodbye to anyone :( that was extremely rude, stupid liz! anyway the musical is next weekend! goooooooooooo team! and sarah ruhle if you ever for some reason read this blog yr' radical!! and i want that half way out cd so i can get a copy... at least i danced to them...

and i finally saw supafish!! well three songs by supafish and half their band...

macdees, dodecahedron is a wonderful word, if thats the spelling.

i met a boy called zane on the weekend! beat that anna! rah jigetty!

2003-05-22T19:48:00.000+10:00

im going to brisbane this weekend! how exciting! only two more days. jigetty jigetty. also food is bad. and there has been much talk of formals lately since alexander decided he wanted it to be at jimbour house and sent erin around to do a survey. this made me angry, why couldnt he do it himself? erin is so nice. supafish this weekend! and matrix reloaded and x-men 2! how exciting. rah macdeeeeeeees!!! i have nothing interesting to say...

nick lucas has a very cute nose. macdees has a lovely voice. so does dane. dane and macdees are the same person. i want to go to adelaide. and theres a guy on some comedy sketch show, possibly the big bite, who knows, but its crappy, anyway he reminds me lots of jon toogood but looks nothing like him.

2003-05-19T19:05:00.000+10:00

keeping with the white stripes theme...
(the first ones quite large)

meg white is so damn cool. i want that hello operator/jolene ^ single/double a side...? what the funk?

2003-05-19T18:50:00.000+10:00

thank you macdees for the post on yr' blog. it was wonderful.

so here's some for you cause yr' so nice to me:

2003-05-17T17:00:00.000+10:00

2003-05-17T16:44:00.000+10:00

and next weekend!! rah!! its SEQUELS DAY and RUGBY/SOCCER/SUPAFISH DAY!! how exciting!! go team macdees!! im spending sequels day with him :D yay!!

i thinks macdees is great! but you know what/whos i think isnt great? david in yr. 9. he scares me lots because i made a really big mistake that i didnt even notice was such a mistake until after cross country. stupid liz.

2003-05-17T16:39:00.000+10:00

i love Dane. he's my most favouritest. and he says beautiful things.

this is for him:

"Pounding" - Doves

I can't stand by, see you destroyed
I can't be here and watch you burning
you lie for a moment, you lie as a decoy
It doesn't matter if I give in easy
So why is it so hard to get by? (and I said)
we so down
but it's now or never baby
we don't mind
if this don't last forever
see the light
but it won't last forever
seize the time
cause it's now or never, baby
let's leave at sunrise
let's live by the ocean
I don't mind if we, never come home( at all)
Let's steal the morning and
set in motion
in and out of love and institutions
cause I know this can't last for long
we so down
but it's now or never baby
we don't mind
if this don't last forever
see the light
but it won't last forever
seize the time
cause it's now or never, baby
So why, is it so hard to get by?
We so down
and this can't last forever
we don't mind
cause it's now or never, baby

2003-05-15T17:59:00.000+10:00

"glenunga is like mercedes' little cousin, we do everything better" - Mr. Alexander Daw

2003-05-15T17:11:00.000+10:00

"Polaroid" - Shutterspeed
"the running joke of my friends is that i couldnt be a real vampire
cause my place is littered with pictures of me in mirrors
you'd probably blame these obsession on my vanity
while thats quite true its got more to do with gravity
cause im obsessed with the havoc its been wreaking on me..."

"...you wont feel a thing while you see it coming..."

"Did You Ever" - Shutterspeed
"did you ever have someone make you feel blessed
but you let them get away before you realised it
how many of the lessons that you'v learnt
have been taught by pain or by being hurt..."

"...have you ever dismissed something at the start
only to have it creep its way into yr' heart
doesnt every fire first come from a spark..."

pingu is one crazy crazy penguin.

^ Pingu explaining the basics of aviation to the Pope

2003-05-14T17:24:00.000+10:00

i think im dying... slowly and uncertainly... is that a word? im seeing macdees, robbie, adam and pyke on the 24th how exciting then add supafish and its makes for a crazy night/day. want that equation? here you go!

supafish x (macdees + robbie + adam) + pyke = crazy talk!

2003-05-12T18:09:00.000+10:00

"Bandages" - Hot Hot Heat (sexy boys with curly hair...)

These bandages cover more than scrapes,
cuts and bruises from regrets and mistakes.
I've been hoping your moping around the street again.
I've been tripping from sipping the dripping dirty water tap.
I've been poking a voodoo doll that you do not know I made.
These bandages are anonymity.
I've been shaking from making an awful decision.
I've been running and running...
feels like my head is spinning round and round.
Bandages on my legs and my arms from you... Bandages!
Up and down on my legs my arms from you... Bandages.
I've been hoping your moping around the street again.
I've been tripping from sipping the dripping dirty water tap.
I've been poking a voodoo doll
that you do not know I made for you -of you- let's see what needles do.
I've been shaking from making an awful decision.
I've been thinking I'm drinking too many drinks all by myself.
I've been running and running...
feels like my head is spinning round and round.
Don't worry now... don't worry cuz it's all under control.
Don't worry cuz it will all turn around.

2003-05-12T17:59:00.000+10:00

this is for macdees cause he said that im "incredibly insightful, intelligent and creative" awww thanks macdees!
its a little big though... but enjoy!

^supafish

2003-05-11T17:26:00.000+10:00

Oh crazy Matthew Bellamy... you are so damn cool... mmmmhmmmmm

"Cave" - Muse

Leave me alone it's nothing serious
I’ll do it myself
It's got nothing to do with you
And there's nothing that you could do

You can see it and you can almost hear it too
You can almost taste it
It's nothing to do with you
And it's still nothing that you can do

So come in my cave
And I’ll burn your heart away
Come in my cave
I’ll burn your heart away

Please close your ears
And try to look away
So you never hear a single word I say
And don’t ever come my way

Leave me alone
It's nothing serious
I’ll do it myself
It's got nothing to do with you
And there's still nothing that you could do

So come in my cave
And I’ll burn your heart away
Come in my cave
And arrest me for my mistakes

"Unintended" - Muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

2003-05-11T17:13:00.000+10:00

^antiskeptic

^wishful thinking

2003-05-11T17:09:00.000+10:00

favourite song at the moment:

"Did You Ever" - Shutterspeed

2003-05-11T16:58:00.000+10:00

i can't wait till sequels day!

2003-05-08T22:07:00.000+10:00

i love these shoes. who wants to buy them for me?

2003-05-08T20:29:00.000+10:00

(he's the huggable one in the picture below on the right... aaawww! i love macdees! i bags him!)

2003-05-08T20:08:00.000+10:00

hope this works cause...
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit's MACDEES! RAH!

2003-05-08T18:32:00.000+10:00

MACDEES!!! WHY??? ARGH!! he took the awesome photo of himself off his blog! that picture made me want to hug him lots! :D but then i always do so whats the difference? ;)

2003-05-08T18:28:00.000+10:00

yay! how awesomely radical are these?? spiffy and nifty all in one, how simply darling!
ok i'll stop...

2003-05-08T18:06:00.000+10:00

hmmm... shwah?

woo! i cant wait to see x-men 2! im most excited... whenever i eventually get to see it... macdees??

Your ideal mate is Bobby Drake. With his innocent
sweetness and his boyish good looks, how can
any girl go wrong? He's the type of guy to
supply you with all the TLC that you can
handle, and he'll always be there for you when
you need moral support, or just a shoulder to
cry on. Though he is still young, he lacks the
experiences of life, and can be naive.

Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only)
brought to you by Quizilla

2003-05-07T16:48:00.000+10:00

Cornflake Girl by Tori Amos

Never was a cornflake girl
Thought that was a good solution
Hangin with the raisin girls
She's gone to the other side
Givin us a yo heave ho
Things are getting kind of gross
And I go at sleepy time
This is not really happening
You bet your life it is
Peel out the watchword just peel out the watchword
She knows what's going on
Seems we got a cheaper feel now
All the sweeteaze are gone
Gone to the other side
With my encyclopedia
They musta paid her a nice price
She's puttin on her string bean love
This is not really happening
You bet your life it is
Rabbit where'd you put the keys girl
And the man with the golden gun
Thinks he knows so much
Thinks he knows so much
Rabbit where'd you put the keys girl

2003-05-07T16:45:00.000+10:00

i just remembered i wrote a short story in english last year. i dont like it but i feel like posting random things on here from my 'my documents' folder.

Author's Warning: this is shit. i suggest that you don't waste yr' time on it.

Into the Sea by E. Callaghan

Sand flew everywhere as Diane shook her sun bleached blonde hair over the balcony facing the ocean. She was tall, lightly built and had a sun kissed look about her. As she sat on one of her deck chairs she pressed play on the CD player and relaxed to the sounds of the ‘Supreme Beings of Leisure’, as the light wind danced over her face and played with her hair.

She was thinking of how perfect the conditions had been for surfing today and about the guy she’d met down on the beach. He was tall, had brown hair that had been lightened from spending so much time in the sun, deep brown eyes you could stare endlessly into and he had a very well toned body with the most beautiful smile she’d ever seen. He was gorgeous.

She’d met him when she was packing her things up to go home after a morning of surfing and was hit in the leg by a ball, his ball. He ran over to her and apologised to her profusely. They started talking and she ended up giving him her number then going home, as his friends became impatient and wanted to resume they’re game. His name was Francis Buchanan, he was a Sagittarius and he liked gelato. ‘It’s amazing what you can find out in only 10 minutes’, she thought to herself as she walked home.

As she sat on her balcony the phone rang, "It couldn’t be him already", she said aloud to no one but herself.
"Hello, Diane Faber speaking", she answered.
"Hey Di! How are you?" It was her best friend, Eddie Rodriguez, they usually went surfing together everyday, but today his mother had made him go underwear shopping. Diane and Eddie talked about how fantastic the surfing conditions had been. After a few minutes of this Eddie said, "Well I hear the waves are going to be pretty huge tonight, what do you think about going surfing then? You know, really test yourself out in the dark."
"What?", she replied, "Are you absolutely insane? You of all people should know how dangerous it is at night."
After 15 minutes of trying to persuade her Eddie gave up, "Alright, fine, don’t come along, but I’ll still go by myself."
"Ok, ok I’ll go, but only to make sure nothing happens to you."
They decided to meet up at her place at eight that night. She really didn’t want to go, but she knew if she didn’t something really serious could happen to him.

She was still thinking about this when the phone rang again. She answered and it was Francis.
"Hi Diane", said a deep yet playful voice on the other end of the phone.
"Hi Francis", she replied, trying to sound cool but feeling giddy as a school girl that he’d actually called.
"I was wondering if you’d like to go out tonight."
She agreed to meet him and they decided that he’d pick her up at her place at eight. She was so happy when she got off the phone that she’d totally forgotten about Eddie and going surfing, and she ran off to decide what to wear.

At 8 there came a knock at the door, as she grabbed her purse she heard another. Wondering why Francis had knocked twice she opened the door and realised he hadn’t. Standing in front of her was Francis, dressed very stylishly, and Eddie, in his wet suit with his surfboard.

"Oh Eddie, I’m so sorry", she exclaimed, "I made plans to go out with Francis as well tonight," she was feeling terrible for Eddie for doing this to him.
"So I see", he replied, showing his hurt at what she’d done.
She explained to him that she was all ready dressed to go out, so it would be a shame to have to turn Francis down now, and not to mention rude, Eddie snorted at the last remark she made. She asked him to come out with them but he refused and said he was going surfing. Diane begged him many times to be extremely careful and then the taxi turned up, Diane locked the door and they all left.

In the taxi Francis tried to keep her from worrying by saying, "Don’t worry Diane, he looks fit and healthy, so if there’s a bad rip out there tonight I’m sure he can take it."
"Its not the rip I’m worried about", she replied, "I should be out there with him."
He put his arm around her to comfort her and she gratefully accepted it.

As Diane and Francis were having dinner at a beautiful restaurant, Eddie was sitting on the beach nursing feelings of hurt, rejection and abandonment. He could feel a lump in his throat, but no matter how hard he tried he couldn’t move it. He wanted to yell out and curse Diane’s name so loudly the whole world would know she’d chosen some stranger over him, her best friend, but all that came out was a strange whimper, like that of a dog whingeing to be let inside.

He sat for a little while longer, but couldn’t stand feeling sorry for himself any more and wanted to get these emotions and feelings out of his system by doing what he loved the most, surfing. He got up, walked out and stood in the ankle deep water. The water was dark and uninviting, it was freezing around his feet and ankles and there was a strong wind blowing. He didn’t care, nor did he care how dangerous the waves looked, he just needed to get everything out, then he’d be calmer, and would be able to talk to Diane about everything tomorrow.

He ran out into the freezing cold water, straining his eyes against the salt water spray, to see the waves as they were coming. He lay on his board and paddled out. He waited for the first wave. As it started forming, he paddled ahead, but he’d misjudged the distance of the wave in the dark and it began breaking earlier than he’d expected, it was a giant, about four and a half metres high. As he looked up the last sound he ever heard was the rushing of the water and the wind, the last thing he ever smelt was the salty sea air and water and the last thing he ever saw was the giant wave breaking over him.

At about 10pm Francis and Diane were at a nearby night club when her mobile started to ring. It was Mrs. Rodriguez, and she was crying uncontrollably. Diane apologised to Francis and explained that she had to get over to Mrs. Rodriguez’s house right away as something terrible had happened.

When she got there Mrs. Rodriguez was hunched over, very tensely on her couch, her small face stained with tears.
"DIANE!", she called when she saw her, she ran over and hugged her tightly.
"Mrs. Rodriguez what happened?", asked Diane, and then she realised Eddie wasn’t home yet, "W.. where’s Eddie?", her voice quivering more than she would have liked.
"He’s…dead", said Mrs. Rodriguez, the last word was more of a whisper. She then burst into tears on the sofa.
"Pardon?", said Diane, not sure if she was hearing correctly.
A policeman who had just entered replied, "He was surfing, and was found washed up on the beach, not breathing, by a couple going for a late night stroll."
Diane’s head was spinning, this couldn’t be true, it was just a terrible dream wasn’t it? Or a terribly unamusing, cruel joke, yes, that was it, Eddie would come around the corner laughing at her in a minute, this was to get her back for not going surfing. She asked the policeman if he were joking, but she had a sinking feeling he wasn’t, and she was right. She fell to the floor, unaware of anyone or anything in the room, and found herself saying, "Its my fault, I should have been there, I should have been there" over and over to herself.

When she woke up she was at home in her bed. She tried to eat, but she couldn’t, nor could she drink or sleep any more. She couldn’t do anything but lie on her bed curled in a little ball repeating "its my fault, I should have been there, I should have been there" to herself and crying. Soon she couldn’t lie there anymore, she couldn’t live knowing her best friends death could have been prevented had she not thought of herself first. She wrote her family a letter saying goodbye and how much she loved them, she also wrote a letter to Francis telling him she’d had a fantastic night with him but she couldn’t take knowing her best friends death was her fault any more.

She went into the bath room, picked up a razor and flinched as she watched it make deep intricate patterns on her wrists and arms. As she sat in the bathtub, tears streaming down her face, she turned the taps on and watched the warm liquid flow out, as her blood mixed with the water she lay back, closed her eyes and felt herself drifting off into the sea.

argh! how crappy is that?!?! so i wonder why im posting it...

2003-05-07T16:40:00.000+10:00

turns out i have a maths assignment due in on monday, this is news to me so i should probably get started yeah?

[listening to The People - The Music (previously The Truth Is No Words)] mmmmmm!! oh need to dance!!

*dances all crazy like and gets odd looks from nextdoor neighbours through windows* "HEY MONDAY MORNING, SEE WHAT YR' MISSING?" ooooohhhh robert harvey! yr' so damn cool!

i have dirty hands. theres a neglectful story behind this.
i planted snow peas for biology, im yet to put cellophane over them... heh...heh... anyway, and apparently they're dieing out in the wind and cold mornings (says my mum anyway, but they're bigger!) so i moved them into our pagola (what an odd word...) and i dropped no. 10 and all his dirt fell out, so i had to replant him and i hope he survives, what a little trooper. dont worry though, dane, nick, macdees, numbers 1 through 9 and numbers 11 and 12 survived quite well.

my pansys arent growing yet, i think i planted them too deep.

*dances off to What I Believe - Something With Numbers*

2003-05-06T19:33:00.000+10:00

rah! i have a blog! i feel terribly bad for neglecting it so badly... so heres a spiffy picture!

go team, i thought this was nifty...

2003-05-03T23:17:00.000+10:00

it feels amazing to go from being so sad to being so happy. i guess thats what the re-emergence of a supposedly lost friend into yr' life can do? dammit, this is stupid head liz who speaks crap, DONT LISTEN TO HER!!!!

goodnight!!

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